We can change the world,
or we can just press delete

why?
whats the point?

listen

is telling someone something as important as them listening?
should we feel better after weve gotten something off our chest like we've lifted a personal burden off our shoulders,just because we have the courage to say it out loud?
or should it make things worse when you've done that and its like no one heard? as if you said nothing at all.
can you hear me when i tell you how i feel ? are you that stupid? i dont say things for my own personal enjoyment...(well sometimes i do)
LISTEN!
get over yourself and start listening because there is a world bigger than you and as soon as those around you see who you REALLY are,
you'll wish you would've listened.

August 17 4:04pm

When someone dies is it customary
to refer to time
"before blank died"?
is a moment in time so dependent on
who was or was not there? do we tell
time
is passing
by the amounts of people
who pass us?

individually un-individual

We all want to different,
the trouble is there are so many of us that you can never truly be individual.
someone has done what you have done! dye your hair black to stand out...
so did everyone else.
we try so hard to be different that were all the same. we all want the same things.
the be noticed. to mean something to someone.
i want to make a difference.
i want my difference to make a difference in someones life!
but what if my difference is the same as someone Else's? can i still make a difference that
is different ?

take away

Take away religion,
Take away political beliefs,
take away classes and hierarchy
take away money
all we are left with is relationships, emotions, friends, the need to rely on others.
we are all equal when you take away the things that people use to elevate them selves,
all your left with is people.

~~~

Life,
is what happens
while were making plans.

Silence.

Silence. Some people say its a virtue. There are many kinds of silence. Awkward silence, the still silence of nature, silence after someone has yelled. Then there is me. Here. when left with myself my mind tends to wander places. Then my thoughts are interrupted by noise coming from down stairs. it stops. Once again i sit in silence, until my mind starts to drift and thoughts of nothingness are running through my head.
i feel a cool breeze. It shivers down my spine, each vertebrae contracting as the cold sensation reaches it. The street ahead of me is long and lined with leaves. Silence. The road is still and each step i take, i take with the ut-most caution for fear that i would disturb nature. i walk a little farther until i reach a dead end in the road. Not wanting to turn back i look around. I spot a crack between two buildings. i squeeze my way through them but soon realize the crack is getting tighter and i can no longer fit. I back out and stand at the dead end. I feel lost and with only silence surrounding me, i feeling more alone than ever.
I walk back to the main street. i hop on the first bus that comes. i sit. its early. the bus driver and i drive is silence with only the hum of the engine as our conversation. The bus stops at various stops. No one comes on. The bus continues to choose its stops, me just sitting along for the ride. i stand up to exit the bis. The doors stay closed. I look at the bus driver. He shakes his head but says nothing. I feel my knees buckle beneath me. My body week. Tears blur my vision. And just like in a nightmare, the feeling that I'm falling off a cliff consumes my body.
I wake. Me, just me. Sitting alone in my room. I get up. Everymorning i make the choice to get up and be okay. To smile because ir will make them feel that they are doing whats best for everyone. Pretend that the strings attachted to me are fine. That i am fine. I choose to be silent and to silence any words that should've been, could've been but will never be.
Silence. Some people say its a virtue, others a curse.

Loss of life

Why do we always have to move 2 steps back to get one step a head?
Cant we just live life at are own pace?
It seems as though everywhere we go someone is trying to hold us back!
Not good enough and your gone.
Dog eat dig world!
Yet only the ones who follow the yellow brick rode survive...

sick
sick sick
sick sick sick

Better

sick sick sick
sick sick
sick

miss you. sicko
<3

every lasting gobstopers
they last for every and the flava never leaves.
unfortunatly
in life
nothing ever stays
...

Not going very far 

driving in this car

 get away car

how far do i have to go

 to get away from here

am i moving to fast 

im losing control 

in this world that so slow i 

crash.

TIME.

passes. passes. passes.

...STOPS...

ticks ticks ticks ticks ticks

               ...STOPS...

passes and ticks and passes and ticks

    TIME.

                     where do you want to be?

                                                            who do you what to be ?

                                             who am i what are we?

                              you'll never know until you get to your

                                                                                        last breath

                                                   how your choices would have effected your life. 

                                                           in the mean time all you can do is  

                                                    hope

                 that their taking you to a place that you would go. 

                         your the one who has to look at your self in the

                                       mirror and be ok with the 

                                                                                                    reflection.

                                 "success is measured by how many people you take with you"

i once had a dream.
the leaves on the trees were orange ,like in the fall.
and the sidewalk covered in those leaves .
the church on my left so serene and silent
and me running down that street.
the leaves chasing me,
as i run away.

life is never as good as it is in love songs.

Slow me down~Emmy Rossum

Rushing and racing and running in circles Moving so fast, I'm forgetting my purpose Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning Getting nowhere  My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it Try to appear like I've got it together I'm falling apart  Save me Somebody take my hand, and lead me Slow me down Don't let love pass me by Just show me how 'Cause I'm ready to fall Slow me down Don't let me live a lie Before my life flys by I need you to slow me down  Sometimes I fear that I might dissapear In the blur of fast forward I faulter again Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep I'm getting nowhere  All that I've missed I see in the reflection Passed me while I wasn't paying attention Tired of rushing, racing and running I'm falling apart  Tell me Oh won't you take my hand and lead me Slow me down Don't let love pass me by  Just show me how 'Cause I'm ready to fall Slow me down Don't let me live a lie Before my life flys by I need you to slow me down  Just show me I need you to slow me down  The noise of the world is getting me caught up Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it Just need to breathe, somebody please Slow me down

Fadein

i look over to the seat where you would have been sitting

and think of the thinks that could have been happening

and hear all the things that should of been said

but the would've beens should've been could've beens

..... fade

and become nothing but an empty promise unfulfilled and

meaningless words that float in my head

random quotes

sometimes you have to say your 

wrong to make thing (al)right.

no where is it written that i can't 

have it all. that thats what ill do :/

overflowing

i can tell the bottle is full..

it needs to over flow and i have to open the bottle to releasve its pressure..

but the lid wont come off.

yet when you least expect it to happen the slightest extra amount of pressure will make it burst

and it sucks when that happen cause it makes everything a lot worse!

traded, trading

back and forth.
sunrise to sunset .
traded like a card.
me the pawn in their greedy game of chess.
not knowing how my desiton s will effect others.

waterfall

and the invisible waterfall dripping from my face made my vision blurry. Now you had no problem seeing me yet still you couldnt see it, or did you all just assume becuase i was smiling it was ok...

Colour Blind.

"blinded by rose coloured glasses"...

we only see what we want to see,
because if we accepted reality we would have to accept the fact that are actions initiate reactions . we would have to come to terms with the ideea that there IS a bigger picture out side our individual bubble of so called happiness
and that as hard as the truth may be, allowing it to be ok
is better than pretending it didnt exist.
we only see what we want to see....
because we're to in love with easy.

Beautiful insanity

life.
some times it s so difficult that all we want to do is curl up in a ball. Hide ourselves from the world. but sometimes we just have to be.
be ok with where we are, when we are and accept that its ok to just be.